So many thoughts swirling around in my head and feelings bubbling up. (Plus I drank coffee today -- even decaf has an effect on my system.)
One of the biggest ah-ha realizations today came when I was talking with a colleague. I heard myself say, "I've had enough of crazy. It's what I grew up in and I'm done with it." It hit me that I'm steeped in crazy-making -- actions of others around me -- and I've been having the same thoughts and feelings as I did when I was a kid.
This evening, I drew a card from my Toolkit for Transformation deck (go to www.HealTraumaFast.com for the most recent iteration): "Notice Your Own Process". No kidding!
I'm asking for a miracle to shift what is going on. It certainly can be one that changes my perspective. I'd love for this miracle to change the dynamics of the situation I've been facing. I'll "settle" for a minor miracle -- and celebrate it with equal joy and wonder as if it were a major one -- that helps me shift my focus in my thinking.
Interesting... as I write the last paragraph, I notice my eyes are drooping and I could fall asleep. (Maybe a little avoidance?!?)
Mission accomplished: ready to go to sleep.
Zzzzzz,
Suzan
